Much is said about feminine vanity. Really, vanity is the living manifestation of selfesteem.
The women before a mirror is a complete narcissus adoring herself, worshipping herself with frenzy. The woman adorns herself the best way she can, she paints herself, she curls her hair, the only purpose being, for others to say, “You are gorgeous, you are beautiful, you are divine!”, etc.
The ‘I’ always enjoys it when people admire it, the ‘I’ adorns itself in order for others to admire it. The ‘ I’ believes it is beautiful, pure, ineffable, holy, virtuous, etc. No one believes himself to be evil, all people consider themselves good and just.
Self-esteem is something terrible. For example, the fanatics of Materialism do not accept the Superior Dimensions of Space due to self-esteem. They love themselves too much and as is natural, they demand that the Superior Dimensions of Space, of the Cosmos and of all ultra-sensible life subject themselves to their personal whims. They are not capable of going beyond their narrow criteria and their theories, beyond their beloved ego and their mental precepts.
Death does not resolve the fatal problem of the ego. Only the death of the ‘I’ can resolve the problem of human pain, but the ‘I’ loves itself too much and does not want to die in any way. As long as the ‘I’ exists, the wheel of Samsara, the fatal wheel of human tragedy will turn.
When we are really in love we renounce the ‘I’. In life, it is very rare to find someone who is really in love. Everyone is impassioned and that is not love. People become impassioned when they meet someone they like, but when they discover their same errors, qualities and defects in the other person, then the loved one serves them as a mirror where they can contemplate themselves totally. Really, they are not in love with the loved one, they are only in love with themselves and they enjoy seeing themselves in the mirror which the loved one is; that is where they meet and then suppose that they are in love. The ‘ I’ enjoys itself before the glass mirror or feels happy seeing itself in the person that has its same qualities, virtues and defects.
Preachers speak much about the truth, but, is it perhaps possible to know the truth when self-esteem exists in us?
It is only by putting an end to self-esteem, it is only with the mind free of assumptions that we can experience, in the absence of the ‘I’, that which is the Truth…
Many will criticize this work “The Revolution of the Dialectic”. As always, pseudo-sapient persons will laugh at the revolutionary statements due to the crime of these teachings not coinciding with the “mental assumptions” and complicated theories that they have in their memories.
Erudite persons are not capable of listening to Revolutionary Psychology with a spontaneous mind, free of mental assumptions, theories, preconceptions, etc. They are not capable of opening themselves up to what is new with an integral mind, with a mind that is not divided by the battle of the antithesis.
Erudite persons only listen in order to compare with their assumptions stored in the memory. Erudite persons only listen to translate according to their language of prejudices and preconceptions and to arrive at the conclusion that the teachings of the Revolution of the Dialectic are fantasies. This is how erudite persons always are, their minds are already so degenerated that they are not capable of discovering what is new.
In its arrogance, the I wants everything to coincide with its theories and mental assumptions. The ‘I’ wants all its whims to be fulfilled and for the Cosmos in its totality, to subject itself to its laboratory experiments.
The ego despises everyone who hurts its self-esteem. The ego adores its theories and preconceptions.
Many times we despise someone without any reason. Why? Simply, because that person personifies some errors which we carry well hidden and we do not like another person to exhibit them. Really, deep within us, we carry the errors which we blame on others.
No one is perfect in this world, we are all cut by the same scissors. Each of us is a bad shell within the bosom of the Great Reality.
The one who does not have a defect in a specific direction, has it in another direction. Some do not covet money but they covet fame, honors, love affairs, etc. Others do not commit adultery with someone else’s wife but they enjoy altering doctrines, mixing creeds in the name of the Universal Fraternity.
Some are not jealous of their own wife but they are jealous of friendships, creeds, sects, things, etc. This is how we human beings are, always cut by the same scissors.
There is not a human being who does not adore himself. We have listened to individuals who enjoy entire hours and hours talking about themselves, of their marvels, of their talent, of their virtues, etc.
The ego loves itself so much that it gets to envy others’ well-being. Women adorn themselves with many things, partly out of vanity and partly to awaken envy in other women. They all envy each other. They all envy the other’s dress, the beautiful necklace, etc. They all adore themselves and do not want to see themselves as less than the others; they are one hundred percent narcissists.
Some pseudo-occultists or brothers of many sects adore themselves so much that they have gotten to believe themselves as being fountains of humility and sanctity, They feel proud of their own humility. They are terribly proud.
There is not a pseudo-occultist little brother or little sister who deep within does not presume of sanctity, splendor and spiritual beauty.
No pseudo-occultist brother or sister believes he or she is evil or perverse, they all presume of being saints and perfect even when they are really not only evil, hit perverse as well.
The beloved ego adores itself too much and presumes, even when it does not say it, of being good and perfect.
Samael Aún Weor
