The awakening of Kundalini and the dissolution of the “I” form precisely the fundamental basis of all profound realizations.
In this chapter we shall deal with the theme of the dissolution of the “I”. This is definitive for the final liberation.
The “I” is the demon that we carry within. Concerning this affirmation we can say that the work of the dissolution of the “I” is really the work with the demon. This work is very difficult. When we work with the demon, tenebrous entities usually attack us terribly. This is really the way of the astute man, the famous Fourth Way, the path of Tao.
THE ORIGIN OF THE PLURALIZED “I”
Lust is the origin of the sinful “I”. The ego, Satan, is subject to the Law of Eternal Return of all things. It returns to new wombs in order to satisfy desires. In each one of its lives the “I” repeats the same dramas, the same errors. The “I” complicates itself through time, each time becoming more and more perverse.
THE DEATH OF SATAN
The Satan that we carry within is composed of Atoms of the Secret Enemy. Satan had a beginning; Satan has an end. We need to dissolve Satan to return to the Interior Star that has always smiled upon us.This is the true Final Liberation. Only by dissolving the “I” can we attain absolute liberation.
THE INTIMATE STAR
In the undiscovered depths of our Divine Being we have an Interior Star; completely atomic. This star is a Super-Divine Atom. The Kabbalists give it the sacred name of Ain- Soph. This is the being of our Being, the Great Reality within us.
GOD DOES NOT EVOLVE
God does not need to evolve because He is perfect. God does not need to perfect Himself. He is perfect. God is our Internal Being.
EVOLUTION AND INVOLUTION
We, the Gnostics have never denied the Law of Evolution, but we do not accept such a mechanical law as dogma.
The Laws of Evolution and Involution are the mechanical axis of nature. For every ascent there follows a descent; to all evolution there corresponds a specific involution.
There is evolution in the seed that germinates, and in the shoot which grows and develops, and in the plant that bears fruit. There is involution in the tree that no longer grows, withers away, becomes old and dies.
TOTAL REVOLUTION
We need a tremendous revolution of consciousness to achieve the return to the Interior Star that guides our Being. When we dissolve the “I” there is total revolution.
PAIN
Pain can not make anyone perfect. If pain made anyone perfect, then all humanity would already be perfect. Pain is the result of our own errors. Satan commits many errors. Satan reaps the fruit of his errors. This fruit is pain. Pain is Satanic. Satan cannot perfect himself, nor can he make anyone perfect. Pain cannot make anything perfect because pain is of Satan. The Great Divine Reality is happiness, peace, abundance and perfection.The Great Reality cannot create pain. What is perfect cannot create pain. What is perfect can only engender happiness. Pain was created by the “I” (Satan).
TIME
Time is Satan. Satan is memory. Satan is a bundle of memories. When a man dies only his memories remain. These memories form the “I”, the myself, the reincarnating ego.Those unsatisfied desires, those memories of yesterday reincarnate. Thus we are slaves of the past.
THE SEVEN FUNDAMENTAL CENTRES OF MAN
- The intellectual, located in the brain.
- The motor or movement centre, located in the upper part of the spinal column.
- The emotional centre, which is found in the solar plexus and in the specific nervous centers of the great sympathetic system.
- The instinctive centre located in the lower part of the spinal column.
- The sexual, located in the genital organs.
- The superior emotional.
- The superior mental.
These last two can only express themselves through the authentic astral body arid the legitimate mental body.
TECHNIQUE FOR THE DISSOLUTION OF THE “I”
The “I” exercises control over the five inferior centers of the human machine. These five centers are: Intellectual, Motor, Emotional, Instinctive, and Sexual.
The two centers of the human being that correspond to Christ consciousness are known in the occult as Christ-mind and Christ-astral. These two superior centers cannot be controlled by the “I.” Unfortunately, the superior mind and the superior emotion still do not have these precious Christic vehicles at their disposal. When the Superior Mind is clothed in the Christ-mind, and when the Superior Emotion is invested with the Christ-astral, we are indeed elevated to the state of true human being.
Whosoever wants to dissolve the “I” must study its functionalism within the five inferior centers. We must not condemn the defects; we must not justify them either. What is important is to comprehend them. It is urgent to comprehend the actions and reactions of the human machine. Each one of these five inferior centers has a whole set of extremely complicated actions and reactions. The “I” works with each one of these five inferior centers. Therefore, by deeply comprehending the whole mechanism of each one of these centers, we are on our way to dissolving the “I.”
In everyday life, two people will react differently in front of any given representation. What is pleasant for one person can be unpleasant for the other. The difference could be that sometimes one person can judge and see with the mind while the other might be touched in his sentiments. We must learn to differentiate between mind and sentiments. The mind is one thing and the sentiment is another. Within the mind there is a whole set of actions and reactions that must be comprehended. Within the sentiment there are attachments that must be crucified, emotions that must be carefully studied and, in general, a whole mechanism of actions and reactions that are easily confused with activities of the mind.
THE INTELLECTUAL CENTRE
This center is useful within its own orbit. What is dangerous is to want to remove it from its gravitational field. The great realities of the Spirit can only be experienced with the consciousness. Therefore, those who attempt to investigate the transcendental truths of the Being based on pure reasoning, make the same mistake as someone who ignores the use and management of modern scientific instruments, and attempts to study infinitely small life forms with a telescope and infinitely large life forms with a microscope.
MOVEMENT
We need to self-discover ourselves and to deeply comprehend all of our habits. We must not allow our life to continue to unfold mechanically. It seems incredible that, living within the patterns of our habits, we do not know the patterns which condition our lives. We need to study our habits; we need to comprehend them. These habits belong to the activities of the center of movement. It is necessary that we self-observe the way we live, act, dress, walk, etc. The center of movement has many activities. Sports also belong to the center of movement. When the mind interferes with this center, it obstructs and causes damage to it, because the mind is very slow and the center of movement is very fast. Any typist works with the center of movement and can naturally make mistakes at the keyboard if his mind intervenes. A person driving an automobile could have an accident if the mind intervenes.
THE EMOTIONAL CENTRE
The human being stupidly wastes the sexual energy with the abuse of violent emotions; cinema, television, football games etc. We should learn to dominate our emotions. It is necessary to save our sexual energies.
INSTINCT
There are various instincts.The instincts of preservation, the sexual instinct etc.; there are also many perversions of instinct.
Deep within every human being there are brutal, subhuman instinctive forces that paralyze the true spirit of love and charity. These demonic forces should first be comprehended, then brought under control and eliminated.These bestial forces are: criminal instincts, lust, cowardliness, fear, sexual sadism, sexual bestiality etc. We need to study and profoundly comprehend these subhuman forces, before being able to dissolve and eliminate them.
SEX
Sex is the fifth power of the human being. Sex can liberate or en slave man. No one can attain integrity no one can profoundly realize himself without the sexual force. No celibate can achieve total realization. Sex is the power of the Soul. The integral human being is achieved with the absolute fusion of the masculine and feminine pales of the Soul.
The sexual force develops, evolves and progresses on seven levels (The seven levels of the Soul). In the physical world sex is a blind force of mutual attraction. In astral, sexual attraction is based on the affinity of types according to their polarities and essences. In the mental world sexual attraction takes place according to the laws of polarity and mental affinity. On the causal plane sexual attraction is realized on the basis of Conscious Will. It is precisely on this plane of natural causes where the complete union of the Soul is consciously realized, In fact, no one can attain the complete glory of the Perfect Matrimony without having reached this fourth state of human integration.
We need to profoundly comprehend the whole sexual problem. We need to be integral. We need to transcend the mechanics of sex. We need to know how to procreate children of wisdom. At the supreme instant of conception, the human essences are completely open to all kinds of influences. The state of purity of the parents and their force of will to not spill the Cup of Hermes is all that can protect them from the danger that the spermatozoon and the ovum may be infiltrated by the subhuman substances of the bestial egos, which wish to reincarnate.
THE ABSOLUTE DEATH OF SATAN
By comprehending the intimate activities of each of the five inferior centers we discover the whole process of the “I”. The result of this self-discovery is the absolute death of Satan. (The tenebrous lunar)
ADULTERY
The woman, being the receptive, passive element clearly collects and stores the results of the sexual act with all those men who commit adultery with her. Those results are atomic substances from the men with whom she has had sexual intercourse. When a man has sexual relations with a woman who has been with another man or other men, he then absorbs atomic essences of the other men and poisons himself with them. This is a very grave problem for the brothers who are dissolving the “I”, because then, not only do they have to fight against their own errors and defects, but also, in addition against the errors and defects of those other men with whom the woman had sexual contact.
THE ROOT OF PAIN
The “I” is the root of pain. The “I” is the root of ignorance and error. When the “I” is dissolved, within us only remains the Internal Christ. It is necessary to dissolve the “I”.
Only by dissolving the “I” do ignorance and error disappear. When the “I” disappears, all that remains within us is that which is called Love.
When the “I” dissolves, authentic and legitimate happiness comes to us.
Only by completely, totally annihilating desire can we achieve the dissolution of the “I”. If we want to annihilate the “I” we need to be like the lemon.
The “I” is the horrifying Satan, the horrible demon who has made our life so bitter and nauseating.
Samael Aun Weor
